Senior Home Alarm

Okay.
I’m gonna make this as short as possible. But in order to get the insight that i truly need, bear with me.

I’m 18, i’m young. yes i know. thank you. i’ve been in probably the top 20 shittiest relationships known to man. i wanted to start new. so i moved to virginia to live with my Nana, Dad, Step mom and brother. I’m about 15 minutes out of D.C. it’s a great area. Lots of people I LOVE IT. here comes the downfall- if you weren’t raised here, or you aren’t in college now, and aren’t 21 and able to go to the bars downtown, it makes it very hard to find friends. which was so hard for me at first because i was somewhat well known where i had moved from, and had also lived there for 14 years. For the first time in my life, i stayed home on a weekend, and i promised myself i wouldn’t let that happen again. So, i went out the next week. Got hired at starbucks, which got me pretty excited. Job, people, and coffee of course! (: when i wasn’t workin i was at home helping my grandma fix up some of our cute gargantuan colonial (tough job). well, she needed nails for the floors, so off she sends me to the little family owned variety/hardware store in our community. i looked terribly knappy, just wanted to get in, get the damn nails, and leave. haha. of course i come to a bit of a struggle, figuring out the difference between the flat head and whatever the other term is, and one of the most beautiful guys i’d ever seen came up and asked if i needed help. cute story right? baffled i accept his attempt at customer service and allow him to help me. off i go with one nail. i had been so twitterpated by this crooked smile that i had forgot to buy the OTHER 64 THAT WERE NECESSARY. So my Nana sends me back. He got the biggest smile when he saw me the second time around. he assisted me on finding the missing 63 nails and off i went. (now i was well known in high schoool, i never had to give out my number, it was always them asking for mine…but…) ; i decided to swith things up a bit and give him mine. I go to check out and ask the college student at the register to leave "the incredibly sexy guy in hardware" my number. i write "Hey, thanks for helping the helpless(: call me sometime!" cheesy i know. i leave. hours roll around. he texts me. "anytime! but hey, i have a girlfriend and she might not be too happy if i went out with ya, but call me and we’ll do lunch sometime" first off WHOA! what decent 21st century guy actually respects his girlfriend enough to say that. i was astonished. he became all that more attractive to me. I kindly reply, "we probably shouldn’t even do lunch then haha, but thank you for treating her with the respect she deserves"….a week goes by. Halloween rolls around. I get in a car accident, i’m all vicadined up haha, and my family decides we need to go to the variety store for last minute candy. we go to leave, and there i see him outside, standing next to his girl…staring at me the whole time as i walk away…while i just smile and wave. 5 minutes later. literally. text message: "so you cant stop and say hi?"….I reply: "well, your girlfriend probably wouldn’t have liked that"…He replied: "she wouldn’t have cared" -end of convo. yet another week goes by. i’m at work…and i’m at the register counting the till, i look up cause i hear our door chime, and it’s him. the first words out of his mouth were "i didn’t know you worked here!" he looked sooo happy to see me, and to tell you the truth…i jus played it off like it was nothin really…i was too full of butterflies to be very responsive, he pays for his mocha, leaves, and 10 minutes later "you didn’t look to happy to see me"…well you and i both know obviously that this wasn’t the case and i did my flirty reply. he offers to hang out sometime. the next night he comes to get me from my house. we go back to his place. sit on opposite ends of the couch…had a GREAT conversation. he took me home. no physical. etc. from that second on we’ve been inseparable. i’ve spent the night at his house multiple times. 3 if not 4 times a week. he takes me to work, he picks me up…we go grocery shopping together sometimes. i went to meet his friends the first couple weeks of hanging out. they loved me. we continue to see each other, going to movies, shopping, dinner, he came over to meet my parents on thanksgiving. we are planning on giving each other a christmas present. we’ve kissed and cuddled. but that’s all we’ll do. he is still with his girlfriend….which is hardly even that. he’s with me all the time and when he isn’t with me he is with his friends and when he isn’t with either of us he is working or sleeping. he never sees her. (now a little background on the girl. she’s a senior. works two stores away from him. keeps him on a tight leash. she’s albanian. her family is very strict, doesn’t accept his race, she isn’t ever really allowed to do anything except go to school, work and spend time with her family. they’ve been together off and
off and on, and it’s just seemed very casual. he doesn’t seem happy with here, and i mean for christs sake he doesn’t even save her number in his phone.) basically my conclusion has come to, at first he liked her…and now he’s found something better, but doesn’t want to hurt her…i can’t really blame him though. i wouldn’t be able to be with someone that i knew i’d never be able to have a relationship with their family. and with me…my family loves him! we’re both geminis…our personalites are crazy alike..but different enough to keep us interested…i can virtually see him when i want to…and it would never be a problem. so now where i’m at is…his best friend is givin me the "if you aren’t together now, you will be", and i’m lost in la la land, not wanting to lose the first guy that came into my life here. i’m not willing to risk having nothing again…it would hurt too bad. i need advice. good solid advice. what do i do. how do i act. where should i send my mindset to? thanks!

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